Beautiful Mess.

Stolen from a pointless MySpace Bulletin I just posted.

The past few days have seriously sucked. I've been really lonely. And only my Mum can make me go from crying hysterically one moment to laughing uncontrollably the next. I love her.

Some people don't realize it. But I'm aware of the people in my life who are good and kindhearted, who are there for me to help me get through all of this. But I do. I honestly and truthfully do.

I'm so lucky to have Danielle. Last night was a real eye opener as to the kind of friendship we have. And I'm so happy to have her in my life. Maybe I don't say that enough. Some of the best times we have are the times I come up to the pub and order dinner during one of her slow nights and she has all the time in the world to sit at the booth with me and share my plate and talk and bring me the yummiest drinks.

I am truly blessed to have her in my life. So willing to help me, always being there for me, even if it's just coming over so I can have someone to cook for while the family is in California and to watch Transformers with me so I'm not so damn lonesome.

the past few days would have been so much worse without you.

I fell asleep as soon as I got home from the pub last night, which I was in desperate need of. I don't think I've slept more than four hours a night since Friday. But unfortunately, I woke up at 6:45 with the worst headache. It's so bad that my left eye is literally throbbing. I feel like both eyes are going to fall out of my head. So I got out of bed and I'm drinking some water, hoping it will go away soon. I hope to go back to bed and sleep for a few more hours as I really do need it.

I miss Adela something awful. I'm still working on some sort of documentation so I can remember her visit day to day. But it's hard. You know, she and I have never had much of an opportunity to spend time together, just she and I, one on one. But those twelve days together really showed me something.

We questioned it a few time over lunches and dinners and random camp outs in my bed. We don't have much in common. We don't listen to the same music, our taste in movies isn't much the same, we don't dwell from the same scene, we have only one "friend" in common. Yet, we are the closest two people can be without dating. We have showed each other every side of ourselves without any hesitation. And I hold so much love for her in my heart.

I love and miss you so much, it's almost unbearable.

now, hopefully, back to bed.